I often find myself living by or believing either side of two poles. That I am either in control of all that happens to me, and therefore what shows up in my life is my fault or a mistake that should not be occurring, or the other, of which I have no control over what happens and therefore I am either a victim of what comes or that everything that happens is random-often leading me to feel the need to protect or defend myself in any circumstance. But within these poles lies the development of a relational awareness to our childlike selves, our Souls and the universe that surrounds and meets us at every moment. Much in the same way a fish relies upon the water and currents in order to swim, we rely upon the earth and the moments and energies of the day in order to feel ourselves being met as we learn our way through the currents of an unfolding and purposeful life. Whereby we learn, each step of the way, how to show up, how to meet what is being reflected and brought to us to be felt, touched and lived. Learning a moment at a time that the outside waters course through our veins just as the energy of our minds and hearts reverberates into the ether and beyond, and just as the salmon flits it's tail to try one more time to swim up river through rapid waters. Learning that we are made of this, and that it is this that meets and surrounds us, and that perhaps something impalpable but without question exists that brings us into the ecstasy of being painfully, beautifully and joyfully alive.
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I embark on a deep meditation, with a guiding force that is more energy-based than an image of a guide, resting in this love, the below words make their way to the surface from this energy-based experience with this guiding force.
"...Love is impersonal, it guides us through our days, it washes us clear of personal history and identification. It quiets the mind, settles the heart and restores peace of mind. It’s not personal subjected onto another as the sole receiver of this love, but is a clear force of sustained energy that exists across the cosmos. We are all worthy of this, made up of this life force and capable of exuding this, but it’s not the self we often identify as, it ignites us, and permeates our moments to be bestowed upon the moment and people at hand, independent of self or other valuation. It exists, untouched by physical reality and yet threads itself through physical reality as truth of existence. That is all for today." The following took place during a explorative practice of self inquiry. What I am discovering is an internal teacher to whom I can feel into for guidance. The below is an excerpt from an inquiry involving what action to take.
For those who can benefit, Enjoy, Andrea ... -You need to unravel this How do I do that? -By letting it be here, letting it breathe, be known, accepted as a part of your journey, loved, cared for, respected, patiently abiding in guidance and patient acknowledgement of where you are currently. -This undoes the tendency of fixing yourself. You always want to fix yourself, but there is nothing to be fixed, there are just qualities of experience to be had while they are present, they will come, and they will go, and you are the open vessel to allow them to move through you, without attachment, without speeding them up, without clinging, without pushing them away, without overanalyzing, without fussing to make things better, without overly focusing, without gratifying the instinct to push it away or make it better. The space and waiting allow it to dissolve, the allowance without disapproval of yourself is what is needed. You can make space for things like this, allowing them to come up, to peak, to know they will dissolve and sink back, and arise again in their own rhythm. As you become use to these flows of magic and movement, you will become more attune to your own inner vessel and the messages it is sending you of clarity and ease without the over-focusing to cling and to figure out. This is one area of which this is happening and occurring, there are many others indeed. You can remember what (your friend and teacher, said about unraveling one area and then the others unravel themselves. So this is the case where it is happening here, and you can wait and see what happens next. The only thing you need to know is if it is guided or not. The rest of the things that you tell yourself are just stories. Even spiritual stories. Experiences are, they don’t need stories to attach themselves to. They arise in one plane and can look different depending on which plane of existence you are observing them on [physical, emotional mental, causal], and they can all exist simultaneously without contradiction. Allow for this, but do not become overly involved, that is where you tend to loose truth. You can only fully understand a lesson when it is complete and that occurs in the experience of passing it on to someone else, either in writing or in speaking with another person. But even that has it’s limitations, as their unique blend of a lesson will be unique to them, and even your lesson will take on multiple forms. Keep this simple, do not overly think this through. The real point we are trying to make is that lessons have their own time frame and patterns and you need to allow these things to play out in their own time and way, and remain a bystander, curious, open, involved but as a participant in something greater and not as your identity. You can let things be, especially when you increasingly come to realize what you are, you will less likely cling to what you are not. That is all for this evening. -So…what was the one thing that I needed to inquire on this? That was not clear to me. -You needed to ask our perspective, which you did, inadvertently by staying open and letting the answers come through not self directed or within the borders in which you were holding it Oh that helps me, thank you -You are welcome |
AuthorAs a person who is highly interested in the inner landscape through interaction with the external, I find it invaluable to express these experiences. Here, a collection of musings; experiments, potential truths, and ultimately, my unique pathway of creative learning and growth. Blog and website edited by scholar, literary enthusiast, horticulturist and friend Peter Dryden.
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